"The support I received was absolutely inadequate"

I went through divorce, fought for my kids, was struggling to hold my job down and lost my mother having been brought up in a single parent family and never having met my father let alone been influenced by him, and this resulted in me attempting to commit suicide as a result.

I woke up two days later in intensive care.

I was seen by the crisis team and they allowed me to go home.

I was on the sick from work

As a result of not being at work I had no company vehicle and was isolated in a separate village to my main family.

I was made to wait 18 weeks on a waiting list to receive treatment whilst work would not allow me to return until I received treatment.

In this 18 weeks I have never felt so vulnerable and alone. With no support, no mental health support, no income (with bills to pay).

If ever there was a way to make someone want to finish the job they failed (killing one's self), Primary Care nailed it.

I was totally broken mentally.

It took me 20 weeks to overcome my immediate mental health issues and start to improve.

I undertook 8 sessions of a dealing with feelings group up until someone I knew from my local village joined the group. Not wanting to divulge my personal issues in front of this person knowing that they would share this information I quit the group- notified the course admins and was basically told ok well we'll get you on the next courses in a couple of months.

To say I truly did not see a life for myself on this planet doesn't even come close and I feel the support I received was absolutely inadequate.

I believe I would be dead if it was solely primary care I had to rely upon for support and I feel totally failed and negatively affected by the current system. In my experience, it does not work. Think again....